Thinking about the future...

So I am approaching my one year mark quickly and the conversations with volunteers have begun to move away from the strange things that we see to what we plan on doing after our service. One evening I had a long drawn out conversation with a volunteer about the future and both of concluded we have no idea what it is that we actually want to do and finding it in Africa was most likely not going to happen, and coincidentally enough I read the following passage in the book I was reading at the time (the only difference is that he is in the French Foreign Legion while writing this and I am in the Peace Corps, but both in Africa):

8 September 1962

Idle days continue to move slowly past. There is time for reading and even more for thinking - time to take stock of one's life. REalizing that I have two more years and more to go, I realize simultaneously that it is too early to plan. But it is not too early to dream and that is a source of great pleasure.

When I finish here I will be approaching my twenty-fifth birthday. That is a sobering thought. My youth will have passed me by - not so fast, that is for sure. I will have no qualifications and no experience that is readily marketable. What to do? Friends with whom I was at school will have finished university and obtained their degrees and will be years ahead of me.

I do not even begin to know what I would like to do, although I am aware of several things that I would like not to do. Perhaps it is by a process of eliminiation that one eventually stumbles on the thing that gives one the most satisfaction in life. The great thing is to keep on moving forward and to keep on looking.

-(pg 210, Legionnaire, by Simon Murray)

I may have more marketable experience and qualities but still I have no idea what I want to do, where I want to end up but I definitely know what I do not want to be, where I don't want to be, and who I don't want to be. So the search continues and will continue until I find the drive to finally decide.